months that ache..
months that break..
months i will treassure…
months that i will live forever…
where do i start?… this past two months was very changing…in every part of my life… lonely, depressing but worth fighting…moment by moment… I learned my lesson… eventhough I shed so may tears that can fill up a lake… I still continue to live… "no harm done" yes physically but emotionally? im ruined…
i keep on fighting. It’s not the end of the world!duh? I won’t kill myself for that… i’m not suicidal… I have a lot more ahead of me.. dreams to fullfill.. goals to attain.. No person will going to take that from me.. They might had misunderstood me… but it’s just who i am. I just loved and want to be love back… by the person that i will call mine… I’m not looking for a perfect person nor an ideal one.. Im not expecting a cheesy episode on how we meet and end up together. As long as he is there for me… unlike the others who told me that he will not leave me.. well."reality bites" we are in reality not in dreamland amigo! the person you think will not betray you. After all tha love that you gave is the one who’s goin to spoil everything… not just once… but so many times..thinking that i didn’t understood that person..i did..and if i’m not..i wont be like this.. I’m so tired of playing this game… enough for me..it’s time that for once i will love myself.. i’m sorry i lost a "bestfriend"… but i treassured the memories we once had… It’s all coming back again like before… the only difference is i expected and hoped really badly that it turned me into pieces. *sigh* *breathe deeply* and *smile* eventhough the world turn upside down i’m still here… eventhough much have been shed.. it won’t happen now… not a single drop….
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